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Eating Disorders

I'm not bulimic

Posted By: TALLULAH
Date: Monday, 7 November 2005, at 1:23 p.m.

I know I'm kidding myself that it's okay to be sick after a meal, or after you feel upset, bored and frustrated and you binge and throw up. I kid myself that when I started doing this it was okay because I only threw up my dinner. Today I struggled to keep my lunch down. I've only been doing this for 2 weeks but I've lost weight and feel great. The feeling of a full stomach makes me ill and I don't even have to fear being sick now I enjoy it and I'm getting better at it. (I know that sounds awful but its true). I clean my teeth after every episode so my teeth will be okay right? no-one i will find out. If the little I do eat contains vitamins then my hair wont fall out. So its a win win situation. I'll be thin and healthy. I hate myself for not having the discipline to be anorexic so guess my only key to being thin is throwing up. I'm not bulimic.
TALLULAH (k_watchorn@hotmail.com), UK
Thursday, January 20, 2005 at 16:21:39

Messages In This Thread

I'm not bulimic
TALLULAH -- Monday, 7 November 2005, at 1:23 p.m.

Re: I'm not bulimic
Mandi -- Friday, 9 December 2005, at 8:55 a.m.