Apology Project

Apology

Posted By: Tina
Date: Saturday, 24 March 2007, at 3:32 a.m.

I'm sorry I don't live up to my own expectations - or others'.
I'm sorry I've cheated on boyfriends who didn't deserve it, and didn't on those that did.
I'm sorry I'm such a coward, and liar.
I'm sorry I can't accept what I really feel.
I'm sorry I can't truly open up to anyone.
I'm sorry I keep committing the same sins.
I'm sorry I don't feel closer to God - I'm not really religious, yet I owe God so much.
I'm sorry I'm so weak, that I lie so well, that I still think I'm a good person, that I won't kill myself because I am afraid of the effect it would have on my family and friends...
I'm sorry I'm not a better lover.
I'm sorry I've had more than 9 lovers.
I'm sorry that I'm still not married and have no children - and I'm 35. I should be divorced by now - but, I'm not sorry that I'm not [divorced].
I'm sorry I left my fiance, I'm sorry I hurt the rebound relationship I got into after that - neither man deserved the pain - I'm not worth that kind of pain.
I'm sorry to see that there are other disappointed people in this world -
but mostly that some of them are disappointed because of me.

Thanks,
me, unfortunately

Messages In This Thread

Apology
Tina -- Saturday, 24 March 2007, at 3:32 a.m.

Re: Apology
Geoff -- Monday, 2 July 2007, at 8:54 a.m.