Diana, I am sorry for what you are going through. I know you've kept this bottled up for a long time. You have to realize that no family is perfect. If your mother chooses to stay in an unhappy situation that is her choice as an adult. You can not make her stay or leave. she is an adult and can make her own decisions. Parents aren't perfect. There's probably a lot of things you don't realize and that your mother doesn't tell you.

Remember that nothing is worth killing yourself over. That will only make your family even more upset. Undoubtedly God would not be happy to take such a precious gift that he gave you and throw it away. We all get upset and depressed at times. You just have to realize that whatever is wrong now, somehow it can be fixed or get better eventually. Someday you will be older and on your own. If your mother decides to leave that is still her choice.