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I wish I were dead

Posted By: Free <longblonde21@mail.com>
Date: 21 October 2009, at 8:05 p.m.

I wish I were dead. hmmm yes I am talking about suicide, but in my case, not from relief of pain or trying to get away from anything. I feel like I really don't want to live. But the real reason i'm writing is I just wanted to express myself. I have known for over half a decade that I would probably die by suicide. This was not because I was sad or afraid or wanted to get away from anything. I mean their are people in this world who would kill for my life, I have good friends, a great family, and was fortunate enough to be born attractive. However, to me the thought of my existence in this world for the next 50 or more years does not appeal to me in the least. I don't want to live past the next 5 years. I guess I am hoping I will die in some sort of accident, which has promoted me to do potentially life endangering things with little care. However I have not died and am realizing its probably going to come down to suicide. I think about it everywhere, walking, driving, I even think about it in the most unlikely places when i'm hanging out with friends or in bars. This is not a constant thought, it more comes and goes but is always present and has my full attention when I catch the thought. I don't if i'm expecting anything to come from this. Maybe a few people will tell me I have imbalances. I guess thats possible, but I know I am of an above average intelligence. I really just wish I were dead.

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• I wish I were dead (views: 70)
  Free -- 21 October 2009, at 8:05 p.m.
  • Re: I wish I were dead (views: 53)
    Jen -- 6 December 2009, at 7:44 p.m.

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