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Today Was A Significant Day In My Life

Posted By: ForgottenOne
Date: Monday, 9 August 2010, at 7:15 p.m.

Well, today has marked a pretty significant even in my life as far as I'm concerned. Earlier I changed my relationship status on Facebook to "in a relationship." Why did I do this? Certainly not because I'm in a relationship, that's the furthest thing from the truth. I did it because I'm tired of hearing about how a guy like me should have significant others lining up to date me & I'm tired of making lame ass excuses as to why that's not happening.

The truth of why that's happening? I don't know... And I don't want to admit to people that I don't know. So from now on I will not be known as single anymore but instead I will always 'be in a relationship' because I've come to the conclusion that if I haven't found anything yet, I never will. Today marks the day that I have accepted defeat.

I have friends, I have good looks, I have a pretty nice body that I keep in shape; yet I still can't seem to keep up with my friends who have had more girlfriends than I can count on 2 hands. Why? I don't know... it just doesn't make sense. I'm probably going to become a raging alcoholic one of these days. Hey, nobody likes an alcoholic but then again, nobody likes me so who cares?

Not to be a downer tonight, but I've just reached the end of my struggle. It was a struggle when I was trying, now that all hope has been lost, I will not continue to try. If you are wondering how old I am by reading this, I will tell you. I am 20 & yes... I have had sex. The things I cannot attain are greater than the physical realm. "Shouldn't you be out doing things?" Yes.. If I was a somebody I would be out doing things. A

Maybe I cant find someone who accepts me for me because there is no such a thing... Either that or because nobody is interested in some hate-my-life blogger. But that's not how it is.. I just needed an anonymous place to vent my issue & inform everyone that I've officially been fucked by the world.