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Teen OCD
Re: I have ocd and i need help!
Posted By: Sonia. In Response To: I have ocd and i need help! (Jacob m)
Date: Saturday, 29 April 2006, at 1:06 p.m.
Helllo I am Sonia. I had OCD when I was 10. It starting coming back about 2 years ago. Everyday is like a marathan. I rush to school because I have so much to do I am always late. I went on some pills last time I had OCD and they worked, apparently now they have been banned.The new medication is not working. My whole life is ruled by OCD. Whilst I write this I am having to keep stopping to touch things. I just don't know what to do. No one can help. No one understands what I am going through. All of us need help and we are not getting what we need. I am also wetting myself when I am asleep without knowing which we think is from my medication. Everyday I have to the same routine and not like what normal people do. I have to do far more things like touching things, counting, washing, putting things in a certain order and lots more endless rituals. It is awful. I need help. I can no longer cope with this. My routines are getting longer and more stressful. Although there may be no evidence to show physical pain it feels like my heart is being torn every time I do these rituals. I hit my head when I get horrible thoughts in my head. I feel I need to suffer for what I am putting everybody through I just can't help it. I have started scratching and cutting myself because I feel I need to suffer even more. I can't eat a lot or even drink when I want. I can't do things I would like to do and I can't do them the way I want. It has affected my school work and even though some of them know what I have got I still feel like everyone is against me. I try to act as normal as possible at school but I can't stop touching things and I am always last to pack away. I am losing friends because I am always late and they know something is wrong with me but I am scared to tell them. I cry nearly every day. I wish I could talk to someone who knew what was going on in my head.
I hope you all can get better and may God Bless you all. I hope we can all get better.
Thank You.
Sonia.
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